eternal sunshine of my vaporized mind

fast view of cellophane and heat
they always says that things will find there place
things will come and things will go
things find
like fine bits
in crystalline bliss

how was that teeh-c

(I sat and enjoyed the drive
riding as the city wakes up to its lights,
riding with brian and g, all 3 of us and trying to find,

I turned to the lights as the car slowly stopped and
couldn't help
but stare
and stare
at the lights
as the voices in the car drift out of focus

eveything is fine
everything is fine
as you slowly turn and look over your shoulder like in a dream
and want to return to where you were
and realize as you wake, you just missed her)

ideas of smokeless lifestyles and the eternal stuggle
to balance health and depression
or more so ups and downs

"I haven't had the energy to fight off the common cold of being good..."
it is too easy to sit in a window sill with a girl
and watch the city go by
with cigarette in hand

I went to a wedding on saturday
and it was beautiful and it was happy
and I was happy
and sad
being another reminder
of the onset of age

I keep holding to the dream
of meeting her
and not caring if everything is perfect

like"... oh my darlin... oh my darlin...oh my??"
where have you been?

I have watched eternal sunshine on dvd 3 times in 24 hours

yipee, I know it.