valleys of peace

I think I am getting sick, I can't tell if it is
me or some actual real ailment , I never can tell

anyways, I am taking the GRE on saturday
so it would make sense that I was coming down with something
and at the same time
it would make sense that it is nothing and I completely freaking out
and causing myself to be sick

I am such a paranoid hypocondriac

I have so many words swirling through my head
that I have no idea what I am talking about anyways

..discourse,disparate,disengenuous, desemble...
why can't they just make words make sense?

for example
this is one of my favorites "enervate"

which in case you didn't know means "to weaken"
what kind of sadistic asshole decided to make that word mean
"to weaken", I mean it should mean energize or something that would "enervate"

I mean it is like making up words like "powerate" or "maximate"
and having them mean "small and weak"


on a much more somber and realistic note
I recieved some sad news last night
and just wanted cb
to know you're in my thoughts.