communist cuz I'm left handed

thats the hand to use..well nevermind...

dylan thomas or not I finished the GRE and it is now post history
finite - O
infintismal i-ation
i-dea
i-past

task=done
now back to the constant search and evalutation
of life and mind and all the other circles of life

the coming fall has now made me depressed
the shift from aniticipation to sheer depression has
found its roots in different parts of the brain stem yet again

I mean of course I embrace every coming moment but
it is just so depressing to once again be single through another beautiful season
I mean it makes you feel like you have the best hand of cards in the world with
no one to play.

I mean its like that feeling you get when watching a sunset alone
it has its beauty and serenity and all,
but you can't help but think that something is missing in this equation

enough already right???... blah blah blah... same thing all the time..I need new topics

hopefully this blog thing will help get this heartache out of my system
or at least visualize that I am writing the same shit over and over again
and maybe process it somehow

either that or make me completely depressed by seeing how
I am writing the same thing over and over again
again circles

anyways

I am through with the sad sap sychophant

at least for today